SYAAAAAAAAAAHMI SAAAAAAAAAY WHAAAAAAAAAT ?

2011-06-26T08:02:00.000-07:00

Hati aku sakit giler, and maybe I feel like crying now. Asal dier suker ehh treat aku gini macam ? beh lepas tuu dier slow nak mampos. orang mintak break maseh leh main main cakap i'm still your girlfriend beh letak smiley face.

2011-06-26T08:00:00.000-07:00

Dier buat perangai lagi. Bobal ngan aku cakap busy, beh cakap ngah kemas bilik sumer. Like hello ahh, daa 1 hari tak bobal beh biler aku make an effort nak bobal, dier leh reply lambat ? Macam tak rindu sikit pon per ? Beh the moment aku cakap goodbye, the tros main Twitter. Kimak.

2011-06-25T07:01:00.001-07:00

2011-06-25T05:03:00.007-07:00

It's just not fair.

2011-06-25T05:03:00.005-07:00

It's just not fair.

2011-06-25T05:03:00.003-07:00

Aku ngah mendak now, while dier MIA, cam biasa. Part dier mendak, aku layan tau.

2011-06-25T05:03:00.001-07:00

There is no more understanding between us. Can I let go ? Kiter cam, asik gado jer. Mendak.

2011-06-25T05:02:00.001-07:00

2 hari kene ignored.

2011-06-25T01:16:00.000-07:00

Aku daa calm down but aku tak nak bobal ngan dier pasal aku tak nak sakit hati and aku got a big ego. Confirm bobal, sakit hati.

2011-06-25T01:12:00.001-07:00

I miss the old times. Haiz.

2011-06-25T01:08:00.000-07:00

Beh sekarang dier tak carik. Aku ngah pikir, dier buat aper, flirt ngan laki ker aper, kene main ker aper. Hahahahah I know mepek but that's what running in my mind, beh step dier kesah jer. Heh.

2011-06-25T01:05:00.000-07:00

I really feel like giving up from everything. Especially my relationship. Beh dier cam daa tak kesah. Take everything for granted. Beh break, dier tau akan okay balek. Please knock some senses into her.

2011-06-25T01:04:00.000-07:00

Really feel weak now. If only I am the kind of alim person, I will ask God to take my nyawa now but I'm nowhere alim and I'm scared of death. And God, please panjangkan umur aku.

2011-06-25T01:03:00.000-07:00

Dier tau nanti sumer daa okay, beh takkan everytime nak gado ? I mean, aku takleh tahan ngan perangai dier sebab tuu aku gado. Beh dier cam everytime gado, dier buat bodoh, beh nanti baik baik beh perangai balek beh gado. Beh nanti okay. Kalau dier learn from diernyer lesson gitu kan senang.

2011-06-25T01:02:00.001-07:00

Ya Allah, tolonglah aku, hambamu yang lemah ini.

2011-06-25T01:01:00.000-07:00

I kinda miss blogging. ); When will she ever learn ?

2011-06-25T01:00:00.000-07:00

Felt like this alot of time already. Maybe gonna ignore her for a few more hours or untill tomorrow. I still worry about her, I doubt she still worries about me.

2011-06-25T00:59:00.000-07:00

I broke up with you so that you will learn your mistakes, not repeat them but she will never learn anything from it. );

2011-06-25T00:58:00.000-07:00

And there was a time, when I could not take it already soo I asked he for a break, she was crying soo badly and I pitied her then I said I gave her chance, and then I said let's patch and stuff ahh. Then she smiled and laughed. Haiz. I mean, you were acting all along ? Means you will never learn from your mistakes.

2011-06-25T00:57:00.000-07:00

She often repeats her mistakes and never learn from her mistakes. She likes soo immatured, and whenever when were we fighting, she often makes jokes. I mean, in the middle of an argument ? That show's how immatured she is.

2011-06-25T00:55:00.000-07:00

She said she was asleep at 10. So who the hell texted me because she was feeling jealous. I mean, the moment you awake, you go to Facebook and Twitter to kepo around. You never find me. I mean, you find me when you were really bored ? What am I to you ? Who am I to you. I mean, why can't she be a good or just a normal girlfriend like any other girls ?

2011-06-25T00:54:00.000-07:00

I really hate this, I need someone who I could talk too. She said that I got alot of friends on Twitter. But where was she when I really need her ? I really need to talk to her and she said she was tired and wanted to sleep. I mean like.......nvm. Haiz.

2011-06-25T00:50:00.000-07:00

Everytime, you need me, at night or whenever, I will be there. Why can't you do the the same ? I mean like, we are a couple, I thought you would do the same to me too ? I mean like, there was one incident. I asked her to keep me entertained and she said that she was sleepy and I disturbed her sleep. You know what I felt ? I felt sad. I said okay goodnight and stuff. Then I texted her saying that I'm gonna sleep and she didn't reply so I assume that she is sleeping. Then suddenly when I wake up, I checked her Twitter, and at 3, directly after I'm asleep, she was using Twitter. I got real angry. I mean, I talked to her but she was sleeping. And the moment, I was asleep, she used Twitter and complain that she felt tired ? Like OMG, I was lonely and she was busy sleeping and the moment I slept, she suddenly awake ? So tell me, are you really pissing me off ? Cause I'm sad and down and tired of these.

2011-06-25T00:45:00.001-07:00

Pretty sad to see all your text saying all that. I bet no one reads my blog nowdays as everyone is busy with O Levels or Twitter or other stuff. I just hate it when you reply that way cause I know things are gonna repeat and I'm sick and tired of it already. You said that you were lonely yesterday. But you were having soo much fun yesterday and the moment you got home, you slept. Soo what is there to be lonely about ? My girlfriend doesn't know how to use words and she often makes me pissed off. I'm doing my my malay assignment now but I really swear I feel like crying. I just couldn't take it anymore. No one is gonna listen to me. I mean, I texted her yesterday, and we were both happy but she replied me late and I don't like that so I told her to text me later. I waited for like 1 hours ? Being lonely and stuff, she texted me, then her perangai start. She replied okay then. I hate that kind of reply, then she text me saying that she was gonna sleep. I mean, you have not been talking to me for like a whole day and now you are just gonna go just like that ? What about me ? I'm your boyfriend, don't I need to be entertained ?

2010-08-21T19:01:00.000-07:00

Ahahahahaha. Thanks for all the memories. Well, I helped you with your Oral Presentation. Yeah, I didn't expect you to say anything to me just appreciate me for once. And yes, I waited for like 1hour for you to Online back and woke up early in the morning just to complete your Oral Presentation. And yeah, like always you never fail to destroy my Sunday Mornings. Well, I'm used to that already. You got no reason to be moody cause you are not the sick and tired one. You didn't tried hard enough to come online last night. Yes, I know that. And where were all your friends? The ones that you were laughing real hard with ? Noo matter how you ignored me, I will always be there with you. Even if you don't need me, I don't mind sticking around. 9 is a small number ? Wait, you forgot the word MONTHS. And yes, if thats what you say, 9months is not long. Soo yeah. You left me wounded many times. Nvm, I will be stronger. You got no idea how hurt I was after all you said just now. Especially about 9months. Yeah, I will always remember that. It's soo short. I know you expect me to be excited about. But hey, you were all moody and your reply were late due to your computer. But one thing, I did your Oral Presentation sincerely and I wanted nothing back. Just that, where were all your friend who you laugh with soo hard that you ignored me completely. Were they there to help you ? I doubt so.

2010-08-20T22:52:00.001-07:00

Dying inside, slowly but surely.

2010-08-14T19:43:00.000-07:00

I'm an option. Yeah, now I know. Okay, alright. ((:

2010-08-14T18:12:00.000-07:00

I ♥ you. ))';

2010-08-14T18:09:00.001-07:00

They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices But I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be love by you.

2010-08-14T18:08:00.003-07:00

The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most.

2010-08-14T18:08:00.001-07:00

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.

2010-08-14T18:07:00.003-07:00

The best thing about me is you.

2010-08-14T18:07:00.001-07:00

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

2010-08-14T18:06:00.002-07:00

Some of the greater things in life are unseen that's why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream.

2010-08-14T18:06:00.001-07:00

I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

2010-08-14T18:04:00.000-07:00

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep, wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her.

2010-07-30T07:32:00.000-07:00

Account Syahmi kene hack.

2010-07-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

Aku tak bisa melupakanmu.

2010-07-30T07:28:00.002-07:00

I'm a good boyfriend okay.

2010-07-30T07:28:00.001-07:00

Ayu loves me too , I know. (:

2010-07-30T07:26:00.001-07:00

I love Ayu. ♥

2010-07-30T03:44:00.000-07:00

I hope that my photo at Yearbook turns out great. For once.

2010-07-30T03:30:00.000-07:00

I had forgotten about this blog. I'm so sorry. School has been boring this few weeks. It's just that I'm placed right in front of the class and the people I'm seated with are not the kecoh ones. I guess my teacher really wants me to concentrate on my studies. It's quiet irritating cause my classmate who are seated at the back, usually the kecoh ones will have a great time during lesson while I'm stuck on front doing my own work. I blame myself for that cause I have not been paying attention last semester. I hate the timetable to. Why can't we have recess like last year and lesson like last semester ? I can't believe that my classmate that has always been skipping classes got into Band 1 while I'm still in Band 2 despite studying real hard. I hate that.

2010-07-30T03:28:00.000-07:00

I love to listen to slow songs when I'm sad. ♥

2010-07-30T03:27:00.001-07:00

2010-07-30T03:25:00.001-07:00

I want this shoe real freaking bad.

2010-07-01T23:23:00.000-07:00

I know by talking, it won't make us feel better. I'm have not eaten anything in school thinking about you. I'm not gonna disturb your life and I'm gonna leave you alone for a few days. I hope you are happy with this. During this time, I want you to decide if you still want me in your life or not. If you have made up your mind, tell me.

2010-06-28T03:01:00.000-07:00

-She's the girl of my dreams and I love her very much.

She has never fail to love me wholeheartedly. She has never fail to makes me happy even on my worst days. She is beautiful in every way. She's awesome. She's kind. She's sweet. And most importantly, she's mine. I may have hurt her everytime I open my mouth but she still carried on loving me. Any girl could have left me, she was always there for me hopefully I would change. I'm grateful for that. She's the kind of girl who would always be faithful to her boyfriend. I'm sorry if I get jealous over stupid stuff. She's perfect to me. She knows me more than anyone do. I can't understand her sometimes but that makes me want to know more about her. She's strange in a good way cause she's good at hiding her feelings. And the next thing you know, she will be get all moody and she will share all her problems with me. I love listening to her problems cause that's the only way than I can help her and I just wanna know that I will always be there with her no matter what. She comforts me all the time. She's the first girl that I'm in love with. And I know she will be the only girl I'm gonna love. She's so addictive that I just can't stop loving her. And I felt really stupid when she was away for her NCDCC Camp. I missed her like crazy. I knew she was away only for 2days. But I just can't keep her off my mind. I felt lonely. I'm just not used not having her around me. I just wanna say that I love you, baby. ♥

2010-06-28T02:55:00.000-07:00

Baby, I love you.

Happy 7Months to us.

Hope we will last forever.

We will prove everyone that we are not just an ordinary couple.

2010-06-26T09:45:00.000-07:00

Now I know how a girl looks like if her boyfriend made her cry white OTP-ing. )); I'm sorry ♥ .

2010-06-26T07:01:00.001-07:00

I hate being a boyfriend who likes to nag alot. ._______.

2010-06-24T06:55:00.000-07:00

Friends don't let you do stupid stuff ALONE.

2010-06-20T01:04:00.000-07:00

I can't believe you left me like that and this time it hurt me real bad.

2010-06-19T08:10:00.000-07:00

Our happy moments.

2010-06-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

You've got me dancing and crying

Rolling and flying

Love don't let me go

You've got me drownin' in a river

Cold but in fever

Love don't let me go

2010-06-19T07:58:00.000-07:00

People, I have deactivated my FB account. It's because of fejkdhncnsbdjhn. And fejkdhncnsbdjhn will never end. I guess I'm gonna uss FB in a few weeks or months.

2010-06-19T07:52:00.000-07:00

I think Friendster made me smile, well I think. Facebook just sucks at the moment. I think Blogger is cool, well I think. I think Blogger is better than Tumblr, well I think. People call me weird. Well, I'm unique. Everybody always has something to criticize about me. The thing I wear, listen, eat, choose. They got to make a negative comment about it and they think it is really funny. They way I style my hair often make people wanna talk about it. Hey, is it my hair or yours ? It is really fucking irritating when they comment about me cause nothing good comes out of their mouth. Does it fucking bother them when I dress that way ? Does their mum get run down by a truck when I dress that way ? It's my fucking problem. Get that okay ? I'm not referring to anyone. Just shut your fucking mouth, okay ?

2010-06-19T07:47:00.000-07:00

Girl: Why are you doing this to me ? What've I done ?

Guy: I don't love you anymore, that's it. End of story.

Girl: That's all ?

Guy: Yeah, that's all. Stop screaming and get your stuff and go to work.

Girl: You are a loser. I don't ever wanna speak to you again. YOU ARE A COMPLETE LOSER.

Guy: That's cool, that's cool.

Girl: You don't deserve me, I fucking hate you.

Guy: Have a good day, yeah.

2010-06-19T07:45:00.000-07:00

David Guetta. ♥

2010-06-18T22:06:00.001-07:00

Facebook killed me.

And I'm not gonna use it anymore.

2010-06-18T07:20:00.001-07:00

OMG! A few hours without you and I'm like almost dying. I don't know bout you. Maybe you are having fun without me.

2010-06-16T08:33:00.001-07:00

Saturday/Sunday : Library

Monday : Picnic

Tuesday : Movie

Thursday : Orchard

Remember this baby ? ));

2010-06-09T07:29:00.001-07:00

"She’s the type of girl who acts that everything is ok when you’re

around, but truthfully she’s going through so much, you never know when

she breaks down and cry, you never know that even a small little

hurtful thing you say can cut her deep down, you don’t know any of that

because she’s the type of girl who puts on that fake smile.''

2010-06-09T05:41:00.001-07:00

And don't say it's your fault and make me guilty.

2010-06-09T05:39:00.001-07:00

Oh, so you were doing nothing ?

Ahahaha, nice joke.

I didn't want to disturb you being happy and ruin your mood.

2010-06-09T05:32:00.000-07:00

You only say you miss me when I'm not online.

When I'm online, you will reply me like crap.

Only god knows how I feel.

Might as well I go offline and you do your stuff.

2010-06-09T05:16:00.000-07:00

For once, why can't I just be appreciated ?

I stop talking to all the girls I used to talk to.

I stop all my nonsense.

I stop talking to your friend.

I ignored any notification from Facebook.

I rushed home to talk to you.

I woke up 4am to meet you.

I kept my eyes to myself and avoided looking at girls.

I stop talking on the phones with girls.

I stop all the things I do just to talk to you.

I bathed in the middle of the night just to finish talking to you.

I'm use every single cent of my prepaid just to text you.

I went out with you and not my friends.

I'm online most of the time.

I open you conversation and close the other conversations.

I'm talking to 7 people, I replied yours in seconds.

2010-06-09T05:02:00.001-07:00

You will take me for granted once I'm around you.

You will miss me when I'm gone someday.

2010-06-03T00:15:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !

2010-06-02T05:22:00.000-07:00

Okaaay, I'm gonna say this. Sometimes, I hate you going online. But I will miss you when you are offline. When you are online, you will reply late cause I know you will have to attend to all of your notifications. I will feel left out you know. Waiting for your reply like an idiot. Why can't you be the yourself in the past ? The one who reply within seconds. I felt that you really wanna chat with me. I want that.

2010-06-02T04:59:00.001-07:00

Tired !

2010-06-02T04:58:00.000-07:00

Off to jogging. -__-

2010-06-02T04:56:00.001-07:00

Off to Takraw. -__-

2010-06-01T07:13:00.000-07:00

Ayu = Syahmi.

Syahmi - Ayu = <'3

Ayu + Syahmi = <3

Ayu x Syahmi = <3

That's the only Mathematics I can do. Okay lame. -__-

2010-06-01T07:10:00.001-07:00

Ayu is soo addictive. ♥

2010-06-01T07:07:00.002-07:00

Without you, it's like the sea without water.

Without you, it's like newspaper without words.

Without you, it's like computer without internet.(AHAHAHA)

I suck at this but I just wanna tell Ayu that I love her. ♥

2010-06-01T07:07:00.001-07:00

I love the smell of her hair. ♥

2010-06-01T07:05:00.001-07:00

Ayu Ayu Ayu Ayu, I love you.

Ayu Ayu Ayu Ayu, I miss you.

Ayu Ayu Ayu Ayu, I adore you.

Ayu Ayu Ayu Ayu, I ESHSESHSESHS you.

2010-06-01T07:03:00.002-07:00

Her armpit smells great. AHAHAHAHAHA. It actually does. ♥

2010-06-01T07:03:00.001-07:00

Ayu is beautiful like a rose. ♥

2010-06-01T07:00:00.002-07:00

Ayu is awesome. ♥

2010-06-01T07:00:00.001-07:00

My mind is filled with the word 'Ayu'. ♥

2010-06-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

Wanna know something ? I love Ayu very very very veeeeeeeeery much. ♥

2010-05-29T21:19:00.000-07:00

I miss Ayu. Now, that's real. )):

2010-05-29T21:15:00.000-07:00

I miss 309. AHAHAHAHA. Like real. :P

2010-05-29T21:12:00.000-07:00

I miss school. AHAHAHAHAHA. Like real. :P

2010-05-29T21:11:00.000-07:00

-__-

HAHAHAHAHA. I'm feeling hyper right now. Don't know why. Maybe because I'm thinking about Ayu. Weeee.

2010-05-29T05:53:00.001-07:00

I wanna grow taller too.

2010-05-29T05:52:00.003-07:00

Ayu just called me. Weeee.

2010-05-29T05:52:00.001-07:00

I wanna grow fatter.

2010-05-29T05:51:00.002-07:00

I'm always hungry.

2010-05-29T05:51:00.001-07:00

Had fun with Ayu just now. <3

2010-05-28T20:03:00.002-07:00

Got my first weird dream for the month of June. Wow !

2010-05-28T20:03:00.001-07:00

I'm being hated. I hate it.

2010-05-28T20:02:00.002-07:00

I need a timetable.

2010-05-28T20:02:00.001-07:00

I need to plan my holiday wisely.

2010-05-28T20:01:00.000-07:00

Being in love just feels great. ♥

2010-05-26T05:28:00.000-07:00

-Cute kan ?

School was very boring. I got my IC like finally. There was no PE but we played Takraw with the 03s. Played card games during lesson. My holiday is gonna be filled with assignments. There is PTC tomorrow. Finally, I can have more sleep. I went home with Ayu today. Skipped Takraw. I really had fun with Ayu especially camwhoring. <3

2010-05-25T07:09:00.002-07:00

Ayu, ESHSHSSHSHS.

2010-05-25T06:51:00.000-07:00

-I hate my hair. ):

My class have been playing 'Twister' for 2 days straight. I find it kinda boring. Wonder if I wanna bring it tomorrow or not. Btw, Mr Ngoh thinks he is hot. AHAHAHAHAH. Me and Ayu have a new habit. Right Ayu ? ^^, Zhafri have been taking alot of pictures using my camera. I concentrared on SS and managed to get 11/11 for my SBQ. Class have been quite quiet these few days. I wonder why ? ^^, I did badly for my SA1. ): Atleast I passed my F&N. I wanna cut my hair cause it is super duper ugly. I don't wanna school to end. Hope tommorow is gonna be a good day.